just a little worried.

I really think I am loosing what ever is left of my tiny tiny little mind. I have been so extremely stressed out about Jimmy's upcoming surgery I can barely function. I can't think straight I'm cross all the time. AAaaaggh!

Part of me just wants it done NOW and for it to be over with so I can stop thinking and worrying about it, the other part of me NEVER wants it to be done. I mean it's 2 BRAIN SURGERIES, 2 Stays in the ICU, and at least 2 weeks in the hospital for Pete's sake! How can I do that to my Kid? to my family? But, then on the other hand it is our last hope to get rid of Jimmy's seizures, It would be heavenly for him to go even one day without a seizure. And the doctors tell me every time he has a seizure he could be causing some brain damage and he is having 3 or 4 seizures a day lately. But, then on the other hand they are REMOVING PARTS OF HIS BRAIN!! does that sound like a good idea to you? I don't think so. But the doctors are mostly kind of sure that he won't suffer bad long term effects of the surgery, they think,... except his vision, he may lose some more of his vision, what little he has left. So I have been just one little teeny weeny little itsy bitsy bit STRESSED OUT!!!

So, I got a call yesterday from his doctor asking if they could delay the surgery one more month AAAAaaaaghhh.

NOPE.